I’m so restless I feel like i’m about to explode. I need an adventure.
I’ve found a new love in my life and it’s called Steam Powered Giraffe. I went to their Yulemas concert in Bakersfield and HOLY BALLS was it amazing
I went out and skated around a small neighborhood block today, and in the last little bit, started loosing my vision, hyperventilating and feeling extremely weak. I thought I was mostly over these weird attacks since it’s not hot out but apparently not? idk what the fuck is happening to me :/
I had way too much coffee tonight and it was fucking glorious. Except now i’m twitching like crazy and am way more about anxious everything than I should be.
I was freaking out about what to be for Halloween, then realized I have practically everything I need to be BBC’s Sherlock. Found the perfect shirt on ebay for $16. SO SO SO excited now!
also the Effexor is starting to work and i’m starting to feel much better and yaaaaaay
Sent a last minute message to my college asking if there’s anyway I can still apply for deferred admission.
I think I need to get my life sorted out (meaning my health problems and my mental problems managed or solved) before I can really start being productive. Each day is becoming more of a constant struggle, and my ability to take stress has dwindled down to almost null. I guess we’ll see what happens. I feel like this kind of sucks either way that the school decides; i’ve been really excited to get to this school for a long long time.
Effexor is really fucking with me. Day 3 on the medication and i’ve barely slept. I slept about 3 hours tonight and now i’m wide awake again. Really hoping the side effects ease up soon…i’ve been basically bed bound since yesterday. Exhausted, loopy, wired as though i’m on caffeine, restless, painfully hungry when I am, easily nauseated…
Really just wishing I could get some sleep. I’ve got important stuff coming up and I start my junior year of college next week and I can’t bring myself to do anything productive. I went to grocery store today and it felt like climbing Everest I was so exhausted.
Wish I could just sleep through this break in period-instead, apparently no sleep at all!